Being in art school and absent from writing and not updating my journal definitely proves its all been ART lately. I used to spare time with words. I kind of started to miss it. I miss writing. The world of art has definitely sucked me into another world. An art world. Art art ART. Everything is art to me.

I've become more observant. The way I see things has altered through time. I've learned to appreciate everything. I see how much time one simple second of action takes.

This year has flown. It is nonstop. I had ups. I had downs. I am now twenty. Still young, yet entered another era. But made me reflect a lot.

I got tired of meeting the requirements, pleasing the professors. Of doing things to get them done or because time was running out. It was difficult to focus on one project when there was two other big ones to focus on. I could never set my mind to complete one to satisfy me without slacking off on the others. But it's all about time management. I've been good with that now. Maybe the outcome won't always be great, but the process could always mean more.. just like the journey is the destination.


What else is new?
I'm still confused of what I really want to do in life.
Why can't I decide?
I seem to love so many things or just be unsure of most of it. But how can you confuse passion?
I keep asking myself "what do I love doing?"

I started taking a Motion Graphics class. I love it. The works that I've seen amuse me. They take me in. Everything. It all leaves my eyes wide open, ending with the word .."wow.."
And then I got my hands on it. After Effects. "I want to make something like that," I told myself.
I'm enjoying it so much, I've been spending my days watching tutorials, exploring the program itself, learning. On my own. Once I got to class, I got bored because I knew so much. That made me think, wow, I like this. I am interested. I've learned a lot on my own and I am developing another passion.
I always loved editing videos, making the scene. My mind works like a movie. I see everything through different angles, perspectives, rates. I thought about switching majors: Graphic Design to Motion Graphics. Motion Graphics has everything I love in one(photography, film, graphics, designs, with motion, with sound).
Like I said. I'm confused and I don't want to make a mistake. Am I happy with graphic design?
I love it but I feel something isn't right. I'm sure that if this was right, I wouldn't doubt it. But if I make a mistake, and spend more time and money in college, life is still a learning experience right?
In the end, I'll just learn more. About majors and about myself. I will accept it.

I've also learned to accept many things. If something bad happens, I accept it and I am grateful that it happened. If it never happened, how much stronger wouldn't we be? A lot.

I also miss taking pictures. But I know I'll have plenty of time for that in wonderful Florence. Oh yeah .. I'm gonna study in Florence this summer! I'll be taking an Italian language course to master my italian language and a photography course. I can't describe how excited I am!
I love traveling...

Well 2:25 a.m, still awake! I got better things to do than be sleeping right now.



Well..

Hope everyone is doing great and progressing with their art.

Peace and Luv,
Ale